relationships

Every where I go I see people in relationships, I mean even younger grades teens are dating nowadays and I’m wondering.

Am I mad for being the only one not dating?

Lol. Okay.thats kinda funny cause I’m 17 and I haven’t dated yet while my cousins are in grade 7 and had two boyfriends already. Well I guess I know what my problem is? I guess I’m not willing to rush into things, I want to date when my ready and know ‘yes’ I would like to be in a relationship with this guy and not  just oh let’s date and see where it leaves us.

That won’t work on me because I’m a sensitive person and every little details bothers me as in ‘ why isn’t he texting me ‘ or ‘why doesn’t he call me’ or ‘ why is he mad at me? Is this our break up ?’ those are all the questions that my brain has and I kinda think ‘me’ as a person needs special attention. Because by someone not replying to me or chatting to me I become self conscious.

So to answer my own question I guess, I am not as mad as I thought I was.

I am waiting for the right moment not any moment but the specific right one.